not being afraid

Toy Boxes


First off, an apology. I haven’t written in almost a month. Holy Fuck. I know. There have been a few things going on in my life. The first being I finally got my diagnosis for RA. Fuck. Now I want my monkey butler, and to change the name to “impending vampirism” Yes. I am ripping […]

Wants, Interests, and Needs


This I don’t really know how to start, finish or even write.   Ever since Richard left me for Sarah, although they both say I left because I was the one to move out, I have tried to figure out what I looked for in a partner. Male, or female? White, Black, Orange? Age range? […]

A Visit To The Vampires.


Okay, so along with the weight loss crap that has gone on, I have been putting off actively trying to get to Labcorb to get 4 measly vials of blood drawn. It is not like they are trying to excavate for oil right? except they are. The evil sods that go to work as blood […]

I should have done this earlier


  I honestly have no idea where I started this at. But this is where I am at today, 10 days in. I do feel like I have more energy, the stomach cramps have all but stopped. I almost hung up on a customer yesterday because I had to take an emergency run to the […]

Saggy Bottoms are only good on George Clooney

Saggy Bottoms are only good on George Clooney


As those who read here know, I have stared a “journey”. One week into this, and the best thing I can say is my ass is sagging. My jeans are drooping in my ass. Why my ass? not my belly that -could- shrink, no I’m losing in my ass. No I know this is a […]

Where life doesn’t get in the way,


It has lately come to my attention a few things. One. I am absolutely fucking killer at coming up with ideas for fiction stories. Absolute shit at the execution. Two, if I look at my own history it’s pretty freaking hilarious. I mean how many 15 year olds sneak their best friend into church camp, […]

so I lied…majorly


Okay, so I honestly figured I would never be a “writer” any where other than this little blog. I never thought I would be anything “special” to any one in this little part of the web. But it turns out, through tweets, and messages I have made some amazing friends and met some wonderful people. […]